The new school year came with few new perks and cons. One of the perks, (well I consider it a perk some of the days that is) is the requirement to wake up much earlier than what most people are used to….. Advantage of this being that it allows me and some other mis fortunate human being (who I can drag with me on my early morning walks - a rare thing I must tell you Arun!!!! ) to enjoy a few moments of solitude.
The Short shrubs and the taller trees paving the winding road are still to this day sometimes dotted with dainty dabs of red and pink, left over from the recent celebration of the nation’s victory in the SAAF championship. The victory and the celebration is noting but a fleeting memory in the minds of a few… but these lonesome decorations remained. Like brave foot solders left after battle. This road had witnessed a lot of madness the past one month. Mind you, just because i say madness it does not mean that i had not participated with abandon in the madness either. I had... n enjoyed every mad moment of it all the same....
There was noting that disturbed the tranquil flapping of the tides against the shore, the balmy saltiness of the ocean purfumed the crisp air around us as we walked down the steps on to the beach. The surf splashes against shore as if casting away any anxiety in its determined course to ebb and flow. We see no traces of the normal activity today, the screaming rushing people or empty bottles, just only the footprints of few others who had chosen this beach as a solitary escape and the waves.
We wriggled our feet in the sleek, soft white sand, feeling the wind play with our hair and cloths :P,i could not help but give a sigh of contentment as we at down to enjoy the show. This was the world at its best… the break of dawn and all that spirt gave way to one of the greatest color displays of nature. Peace and tranquillity prevailed as we looked on at the magnificent sight of the fiery sun rising from the horizon, splattering its golden shafts generously on its colossal canvas of sky and sea. Words fail to describe the grandeur of the physical phenomenon, but it is so much more, the spiritual aura that mysteriously affects the depths of my soul.
The dawn of a new day. i look towards the horrizon and think, somewhere close by, just across the ocean someone will be waking up to this same delightful display. Some where furthur, a friend will be hopping on to the bus to go to college, and somewhere else another friend will be going to bed. All so precious. "let this day be true to all of them" is the prayer that goes up with the call of the birds.... let all of them be in peace this wonderful, beautiful day.....with luck, this can be a treasure for all of them
to my darling Arun! let him look at the skies today and smile.......
A walk on the beach
What if we want more than just friendship?
I believe every one of us had gone through the stage where we had fallen in love with one of the friends that we have in our circle, or (horrors!) the closest friend that we have (from the opposite sex!). Perhaps we all know are familiar with how AGONIZING a feeling it is when this actually happens to us.
While there are always things we can do to try to move this friendship to the next level (the most profound of all advices will be given by our best mates, our welfare officers in such situations) - the scariest thing for all of us is that there is a very high chance of us ending up with nothing more than a wounded ego as a reward for this effort. To make matters worse, we can also loose the friendship as well. So putting efforts to move the friendship to the next level can be risky at best. Scary! What if the "friend" does not see us in the same light as we see them? What if things become so awkward between us afterwards that both parties may end up loosing the precious friend that we had? Is the effort worth the risk??
Many a time we are left with the painful choice, do we tell that person of our feelings and risk loosing that comfortable relationship that we are in, and keep getting hurt for the effort? Perhaps this is the reason why many of us remain “friends” with the people we love, constantly afraid that we may do or say something which may jeopardize even this relationship that we have with the person.
The other option is to just hang in there and wait for this friend of ours to wake up one fine day and realize that he/she had been in love with us all along? (This when we think of it realistically may not happen… well, may not happen for such a number of cases. The lucky few who had been successful are an exception here. ). To chase them around and get more and more bogged down in our own head and emotions?
Or do we Cut our losses now, and end the friendship ourselves? (Perhaps we can come and take up where we left later) This may seem like the cowardly way out in many cases, but the real the question here is, can we continue such a friendship? Can we bear to continue with a person who, in our mind, we no longer consider as a friend and For who our perspective and feelings had totally changed? Can we continue lying???
I will walk alone....for now..
I walk alone in solitude, my first chance to be on my own after the whole day spent surrounded by people, a chance to think, to be on my own. Funny is it not, solitude — the word is scary to most people yet here i am longing to have a chance to be on my own. To hear my own thoughts for a change, to be on my own for a moment.
Sadly, in our current frenetically gregarious society, giving voice to such a desire will automatically brand a person as antisocial, such individuals will be deemed to be neurotic – or worse. Social norms dictate that one should be a social butterfly at all times. Fully decked up, with never exhausting energy levels, huge smiles, no frowns or complaints. We are expected to be constantly on the move, on a high, scurrying some where important. Our society considers the loner, by definition, to be something of a misfit and the immediate assumption from friends and relatives is that such individuals must be lonely and miserable. Help, often unwelcome, come poring in. In the form of quests for partners, for lost love, and more often than not, a nuclear family of four which is simply a requirement for a happy life.
But loneliness and solitude are not synonymous. In fact, it is possible to feel lonely and isolated in the midst of a crowd. Being among people is no guarantee that one will not be lonely, for loneliness is a state of mind. I should know. I can "happily" say that i had been there, and done that too...
Demanding some time for your very own self sometimes does not mean that i support living your whole life alone. But, sometimes it is easier to simply be. I think every woman and man should be given the change to choose the path for themselves without "helpful" and "interested" onlookers giving a "helping hand". i believe it is the factor that keeps us sane every working day of our life. To be on our own without being lonely and without being disturbed until we are ready to come out of the cocoon ready to exercise out our wings
For you, my love.....
Maybe I can hold you in my arms
if only in my dreams.
So I can look into your eyes,
and whisper what you really mean to me.
Maybe I can softly kiss your lips,
if only for you to realize how dear you are to me.
So i can tell you that I can feel you in my heart,
each moment every day.
Maybe tomorrow when I awaken,
if only you will be by my side.
For I have always known you will
in the sands of time.
Maybe soon you will know,
that I think of you each day, each min, each second,
Now and forever.
If only you will stay in my heart forever.
(for someone truly special)
Just for laughs!
this was a message i found weirdly to be on the more accurate side, so thought will put it up.... bet u had come across it before... if not in writing, than practically..... heh
Nine words women use ... and their meanings
1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are
right and you need to shut up.
2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.
Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more
minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)
6.) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
7.) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.
8.) Whatever : Is a women's way of saying beware
9.) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3
